Tuesday, September 15, 2015


I hoped we would not come to this dark place again so soon.

Earlier this summer, my oldest son had a "psychotic episode"and was hospitalized for about a week.
He was released with medication and encouraged to seek treatment at a local mental health facility.
Which we did.
But he hated it.
He went three times and stopped going.
Then he stopped taking the medication.

This weekend, he had another episode.
And ended up in a different hospital.
I have not seen him since Saturday night when he went by ambulance.
I did an intake interview Sunday morning.
And spoke with a doctor last night on the phone.
He said I could call today,
which I did,
but my son will not talk to me.
And the nurses will not tell me anything
because he has signed a form
saying he does not want any information to be released to anyone.

The hole in our hearts is huge.
The silence in our house is deafening.
My prayers bounce endlessly off the ceiling.

I hoped we would not come to this dark place again so soon.


Diane Anderson said...

Prayers, Carol.

Ramona said...

My heart aches for you. This is so difficult. Adding you and yours to my prayer list. said...

Holding you and your son in the light during this stressful time. I'm glad you were able to write about it.

Linda B said...

Oh, Carol, I am sorry, and of course hoped that everything was going well. If I can do anything to help you, please let me know. You are in my thoughts for change to happen soon.

elsie said...

Thinking of you and sending prayers that this dark place will be vanquished. I'm so sorry that your son has not yet realized he has much to be grateful for in the life you have provided him.

Unknown said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. Perhaps the prayers will make it through the ceiling after all. I wish for it to be so

Tabatha said...

I have a friend whose son was hospitalized for eight days last month and is now on medication. She sees a glimmer of hope. It seems as though finding the right medication and staying on it can make all the difference ... those two things (finding it, staying on it) can seem like an insurmountable hurdle, but people have done it so we know it is possible. Hugs to you, Carol.

Mary Lee said...

Prayers. Long distance hugs.